Giving Away Five Hundred Bucks

Posted by Nipun Mehta on Jul 14, 2007
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Sally was one of the New York generosity entreprenuers and writes this  poignant and honest essay about her experience thus far.  It eloquently affirms that the experience of generosity is only complete with trust from both the giver and the recepient!

Last month I became a Generosity Entrepreneur.   

The plan’s simple enough:  Take five hundred dollars, given by an anonymous donor, and pass it on.  No strings attached.  Focus on small acts of generosity, expect nothing in return, serve strangers.  Person to person. Randomly, serendipitously. 

I left the meeting, with a soft, warm feeling.  We’d brainstormed together: buy coffee for strangers, pay tolls for the guy behind you, pass it out on the street.  I’ve thought about projects like this, and now I would be part of one.  We were asked only to take note, be transparent, and report back. 

First week:  I’ve managed to give away twenty dollars to a very nice paint-splattered woman who was picking white lilacs in someone else’s yard.  She laughed when I offered her twenty dollars.   

“Thank you,” she said, holding the twenty in the same hand with the lilacs and reaching to shake my hand with the other.   

I smiled, feeling great.  Supporting the arts, I thought. 

She asked about the project.  I told her I didn’t know how hard it would be to give away money, and told her of my failed attempts the day before. 

She said, “I live just down here.  Would you like to stop in?” 

“No, no,” I said.   

“I could show you my work,” she said. 

“I’ve got a bunch of things to do,” I lied. 

“Are you sure?” she asked, for the third time. 

“I’m sure,” I said. 

As I returned to my car I realized I’d done exactly what the people yesterday had done to me – avoid a stranger at all costs, no matter how generous the offer. 

The day before I’d gone to Hannaford’s.  My plan:  to buy someone’s groceries. Food for families, I thought.   

In the check-out line:  A woman with three children ahead of me.  I rallied my courage as she put the last of her food on the moving belt:  “Say, I’ve been given some generosity money to give away randomly, and I’d love to pay cash for your groceries.”  She frowned, “No.  No, thank you,” and moved to the end of the counter. 

I sighed when she exited without looking back.   

The checker asked, “How are you today, ma’am?”   

Fine, I said.   

The man behind me said, “Looks like you eat healthy.” 

I invoked “husband” automatically: “Oh, most of this is for my husband’s lunch.  He takes five pieces of fruit to work every day.” 

The man laughed.  “Have you ever tried this iced tea?” 

He had a twelve pack of some beverage I’d never seen.  I shook my head no. 

“The best part is that it’s alcoholic.” 

I nodded and said, “Hmm ? . . .”  I thought, Maybe the first offer didn’t work because I didn’t have the stranger-friendly-connection thing.  It was too out of the blue. 

I turned to the man and said, “I’m doing a generosity project, and if you’ll let me I’ll buy your iced tea for you 

The man’s friendly face actually changed colors.  He just said, “No.” 

I pushed my cart to the parking lot, all the while wondering, Why do I feel like a criminal?  And noticing, I’d just intruded on other people’s worlds with an offer that had raised their guard instead of lowering it. 
 

Week 2: Omega. Gave $60 to a woman starting her own business.   She accepted, then hugged me.   

Later:  bought two cups of coffee for strangers at Bread Alone where I met C.  She came up with the idea of putting 5 dollar bills in envelopes and just handing them out and saying thank you! combining generosity and gratitude.  She was so excited she said she’d try it herself with her own money, just for the fun of it.   

Later:  roleplayed giving 5 dollars in envelopes to two other friends.  They suggested that 5 dollars would be insulting and that I should give at least 20.  I asked if they,d like to join me in giving away money.  They both declined. 

Jade’s Bakery:  Paid for my coffee and said, “And his too,” indicating a young man nearby who had a head set on, listening to music, while something was being grilled for him.  “4.75,” the server said.  The young man came to the counter and reached into his pocket as I was leaving.  He and the woman spoke in Spanish and he turned to look at me.  I waved and left, got into my car quickly and drove away, like a guilty Robin Hood.   

Hooker Ave. I saw an older man with a shopping cart full of bottles.  I stopped and said, Thank you for picking up all these bottles.  Will you let me give you this?  (I had 20 dollars in my hand.)  He took it.  “I’ll send it to my grandson.  He needs school clothes.”  He told me about his son, his grandson, about the Shriners who do free medical care for children.  He said he earns 70 to 80 dollars a week with bottles and cans.  He kept thanking me and wanted me to hear more and more of his story.  My listening seemed more valuable to him than money.  My car wasn’t parked well and I left him with a handshake after about ten minutes, feeling like I didn’t give enough of anything: time or money.   

Week 3:  Omega Cafe: gave 20 dollars to a happy server.  I told her it was part of a generosity project.  She said, Then I’ll be generous and share it with  the other servers.  As I sat with my iced coffee, a man and woman walked by and smiled. I went to their table and told them I was passing out money and gave them each 5 dollars.  They laughed and said, “We’ll pass it on.”  The woman said, “I love that you’re doing this; in fact, I love you.”   

Oh, Omega. I could give it all away there. 

Went to the city.  Walked to Bryant Park.  Went to the park bathroom which was immaculate because of the bathroom attendant’s work.  I’m so grateful for clean bathrooms, I would’ve tipped her in any case.  In this case, I gave her 20 dollars.  She looked me right in my eye, nodded and said thank you.  I looked her right in the eyes, nodded and said Thank You!   

I gave a dollar to a blind man with a cup in the subway. Sometimes I’m not sure about that fine line:  Am I giving my money or project money?  In fact, I think the project is inspiring me to be on the lookout for giving opportunities:  a dollar at CVS for Lou Gehrig’s Disease, 5 dollars to the salvation army person, a bigger tip.   

Later:  My husband suggested Goodwill.  He said, Why not give some money to a family?  It should be easy.  So we stopped at Goodwill.  I saw a young man buying T shirts and said, “I’m part of a generosity project.  I’d like to give you 20.”  He said, Wow, thanks, that’s great.  Are there more people like you out there?”  We laughed and talked for a few minutes.  I was feeling very successful so as I passed by a man, woman and child with a cart looking like they were going to do some serious shopping, I offered again, much as I had with the young man.  This man looked horrified, said, No.  And walked away.   

There I was again with that awful feeling of embarrassment and awkwardness.  I went over to where Randy was looking for jeans and said, Let’s go.  We walked to the parking lot.  Why do I feel like crying, I said.  He shook his head and shrugged.  He said, Look, I’m not even gutsy enough to try it.  Don’t ask me.   

Week 4:  Talking to my friend S in California.  She said, hmm, I’ll bet it would be easy-peasy here in San Francisco.  I said, Let’s check it out.  I’ll send you 20 dollars and you give it away.  The only requirement is that you tell me the story.  She also commented, I think everyone can be bought.  If you’d offered the guy at Goodwill a hundred dollars, I bet he’d’ve taken it. 

Follow up:  My friend in California decided to send the 20 back to me.   

Two friends suggested I set up a table full of 5 dollar bills with a sign that says FREE! I tried to think of a place I could do that without getting arrested.  I’ll try it and let you know what happens.

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Comments (4)

  • Sarah wrote ...

    That's a beautiful and thought-provoking experiment. Thanks for posting this.

  • Preethi wrote ...

    You have lot of courage to do it..
    All dont appreciate it ..but they are some who just love you...

  • dee wrote ...

    I think what you doing is nice. I too, even when I don't really have the money will try and help someone else like pay for food for gas. There have been times I have foregone paying my own bills to help out a friend who I thought needed it more then me.

    But on the other hand, sometimes it can be dishearting when you are suddenly down on your luck due to medical reasons and are wondering where you are going to live and how you are going to pay your car payment before you lose it and at least in my experience, the people that have been the closest to me that I have helped, aren't really apted to return the favor, even down to letting me just vent about my problems. But even at the end of the day, when I am still stressing about my situation I realized that the reason I helped them wasn't to get anything in return but to help someone and make my day a little happier by assisting someone else.

    Take care and keep doing what you are doing.

  • Sheetal wrote ...

    This story is full of raw courage.. thanks for sharing this sally!