Zilong, I am so incredibly moved by your reflections. I've been reading each section of this piece independently and at different times over the last month. I loved this particular wake-up call as I am sitting in my nice office right now: "If it is possible for a butcher to abide by the Dao as he carves up oxen, then we might be expected to at least make an attempt to cultivate in nice offices :)". Thank you for your journey, and for your honesty!