A Faceless Presence To Showing Up Fully
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--Ammi
2 minute read
Jul 20, 2014

 

Kindness was a value instilled early in my life, along with a belief that it is only a virtuous thing if it remains anonymous. In Hindi the saying was 'Neki karo, kuan main dalo', translated as 'be kind, throw it in the well'. Laying claims to acts of kindness has the potential to be corrosive as one might end up craving glory, gratitude or heaven-forbid, reciprocation. It is a choice to make for oneself alone, privately. 
Last year, taking the 21 day kindness challenge from KindSpring was my initial experience with selecting something from my day and reporting it as an act of kindness. The reporting was a challenge, so I found a way around by picking something really minor and innocuous that I knew had no risk of being worthy of any glory. Online activities give one the illusion that it is still anonymous, since we don't really know the people we are interacting with, who may be safely a world away.
The KindSpring community awarded me karma bucks for my shared acts. I was horrified and found it terribly embarrassing. I sent off an email to object to the practice of karma-bucks, saying lets keep the bucks off what are the truly priceless aspects of humanity.
Over time, reading about other people's shared acts of kindness, inspired me. I could do some of the same things that they were doing. I experienced how the ripples grow the kindness. And belonging to a community is a voluntary act. Gradually, I learned to accept the new belief that sharing the acts of kindness is okay.
I still struggle with it, more so today as I am no longer a faceless presence, but it is okay to show up fully, such as I am. Thank you.   

 

Posted by Ammi on Jul 20, 2014