10 DAY VIPASSANA NON STOP
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--Jose Ramon
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Apr 18, 2014

 

10 DAY VIPASSANA NON STOP

What a 10 day retreat!!!!!!!!

People ask me: how was it??? I say: “terrible”, but I am so happy and fresh now, like a kid.
I cannot say it was nice, but I did a lot of work. A lot of pain came to awareness. Pain which I don’t know where it came from, but which I know now passes away.

It was easy for my mind to react to the pain emerging by telling me, leave the room, stop meditating, or “it’s so painful, I will die”. But I trusted and trusted and trusted, moment by moment, that all that pain would pass. And a lot did. I don’t know if it’s the whole lot of pain, but I can say I am much more equanimous right now, much more in peace than few days ago.

For the last year, I have been feeling a constant headache, which cause I didn’t know. I have tried many things to stop it, but at the bottom of my heart I knew the pain was a guide towards purification. Now I don’t have that pain ;) Panchoji sent me a story about a monk who had been more than 20 years with similar headache. I had to digest that it was a possibility, and I did. I also had a taquicardia, but I remembered my dear brother Baskarbhai who had the same experience in a vipassana retreat last year, and I surrendered completely to it… I f I have to die I was readyyyy.

I had all kinds of thoughts and emotions too, but I started to see my own nature emerging: love, equanimity, patience, compassion, overflowing joy… It was great experience to trust the mind too… Usually I would stop the mind in a very subtle way, but this time I was able to keep the current of thoughts going without adding more energy to that flow…

The vipassana talks also helped a lot, they were so aligned with the moment I was living. It was great help. The discourses were such a gift.

And it was great that the last day we made some metta meditation!!! That is the meta (goal in Spanish, hehehe)!!!!

I had so many insights that I don’t want to write about them. I know we are connected and they are not mine… I know they are floating around in our hearts in the way we need them to be.
At the end of the retreat, all of us, unknown people were like brothers and sisters. I told a group of people how in my deepest meditation, after few hours in complete mental silence I started to listen to “Pocahontas Colours of the Wind theme”… We all laughed a lot, but it was such a revelation to listen to the lyrics in that state! A lot of joy and connection!!!hehehe it was serious ;)

It’s also funny how Vipassana could mean Vi pasa ná, in southern spain Spanish: “I didn’t see anything passing” hahahah very clarifying. We were all sharing how at the end of the retreat “yo no vi pasá ná” hahahha

I gave away some of my favorite clothes, including one Neils favorite t-shirt which I kept with me for a year as my favorite one too… I gave it to the noblefriend with the gong…such great and patient work….

After Vipassana 4 people from Poland, Germany, Estonia and US came with me to Burgos. Great time. Laugh, Love, Life.

They met my family and some of my friends around and we were all so moved by the experience of being alive together in such inner state!! And they got the whole family pack! My parents cooking a lot of things for them, opening the house for them to stay as if it was theirs, a lot of small acts of kindness and gifts, we shared balloons with quotes around Burgos for a friend’s birthday, one of them got a smile card when buying a coffee…

They were in tears with some of the human stories that we got to know through our ecosystem of love… Raghubhai, charityfocus, jayesbhai, gardens in the slums, nimoji….. and after 5 days they felt so much gratitude that they couldn’t express it in words ;)…

My new eyes also allowed me to see the beauty of my mother, father and sister in a different way, radiant, infinite. They are amazing. wow

In June I will start a BEING pilgrimage through spain… No goals, no intention, not even intention to be kind, only being with whatever comes… sure kindness will help!!! hehehe and JOY will emerge too!!!!!!hehehe As Virenbhai told me one day: “Service ends in Joy”.

Thank you all for supporting me in visible and invisible ways! I thought of many of you a lot throughout these days…

I FIND YOU IN THE ROAD!!!!!!

LOVE YOU THIS BIG!!!!HEHEHE

 

Posted by Jose Ramon on Apr 18, 2014


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