Courage To Listen & Willingness To Know
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--Pancho Ramos Stierle
3 minute read
Dec 10, 2012

 

An incredible touching story from one of our community members, sister Veena, linked with last week's passage at Awakin Oakland:

"It's 3:23 in the morning, and I'm awake
because my great, great, grandchildren won't -let -me -sleep.
My great, great, grandchildren ask me in dreams
what did you do, while the planet was plundered?
what did you do, when the earth was unravelling?
surely you did something when the seasons started failing
as the mammals, reptiles, and birds were all dying?
did you fill the streets with protest when democracy was stolen?
what did you do once you knew?..." --
Drew Dillinger

"Perhaps it was the voices of these grandchildren that beckoned John and I into a serendipitous meeting at Wednesdays on Fridays at Casa de Paz at the Canticle Farm last week.  Perhaps it was these same voices that haunted John years ago, back in 2003, propelling him to act as he and thousands of others filled Oakland streets to protest the war.

Now, we sit after meditation and the circle of sharing in Casa de Paz, nearly ten years later. In soft, steady words John weaves me a poetic tapestry of how it is he has come to be sitting next to me here in Fruitvale.  Again, moved by the passion and will of those seeking change through Occupy Oakland and the Port Protests, John returned to Oakland after transitioning from his work.  He's on a pilgrimage of sorts, discerning a calling to become a Buddhist monk.  His journey led him to the Abhayagiri Monastery in California where he learned about Casa de Paz.

So, with a twinkle of curiosity and gratitude in his eye he joins us for a sit and sharing.  Nearly ten years ago, he filled the streets with protest and was met with Oakland Police Department and rubber bullets.  He shows me the scars on his hand, disfigured fingers, and tells me how a settlement was made.  

He tenderly probes asking about the community, how things work, what we do and what if someone wanted to make a donation?  I respond about the nature of the gift-economy and what some of our needs are. He says he's moved by what we are doing here and always wanted to give the money back. He never considered the settlement money his, he knew it was the people of Oakland's money and he wants the people of Oakland to have it.

We continue to chat easily, words flowing steadily like a deep fed stream. 

A bell rings, voices rise in waves, its time to join our friends downstairs for our vegan dinner.  I tell John it would be a great to introduce him to Annie, a founder of the Canticle Farm.

I'm awed by our simple and deep connection and grateful for the glimmer in his eyes as he generously shares his story.  I've received a gift of connection and the people of Oakland have received the gift of John's call to act, his courage to listen and willingness to know...

It's 3.23 in the morning, and I'm awake,
because my great, great, grandchildren won't let me sleep.
My great, great, grandchildren ask me - in - dreams,
what did you do, when the earth was unravelling?
what did you do once you knew?"

 

[Update: He kept the money for a few years until now, when he decided to give the money back to the people of Oakland. We received a check with every single penny from the settlement, cent by cent pure integrity, pure love.]

 

Posted by Pancho Ramos Stierle on Dec 10, 2012